Epiphany Kindness

On December 29^th in my last gathering with inmates in 2013 I witnessed light shining in darkness and the kindness of God that leads to repentance simultaneously.  I share this Epiphany story in celebration of God’s appearing among us in Jesus.

The good news of God’s Word became visible in a jail bible study on Titus 3, read together with 15 men.  Since the men had just missed Christmas with their families and were mostly all en route to prison I knew they had no need to be reminded to be subject to rulers, authorities and to be obedient. I didn’t want them even glancing at Titus 3:1-2 that day, and asked someone to begin reading at Titus 3:3:

“For we also once were foolish ourselves, disobedient, deceived, enslaved to various lusts and pleasures, spending our life in malice and envy, hateful, hating one another.” 

Amazed by how this verse describes many people’s lives I suddenly see that I need to emphasize Paul and Titus’ identification with the men as a way to establish trust between the Biblical writer and them.

“It looks like the writer and his community here come from hard backgrounds that might have included addictions, criminal behavior and vida loca-gangster ways,” I start out. 

Much of the list describing Paul and Titus’ past messed up lives seems clear enough, but I ask them if they know what “malice” means.

“Isn’t it badness or evil?” someone says.”

“Exactly.  The writer here is coming from a troubled past life, but now things have changed,” I continue. “Have any of you guys experienced these kinds of things, hating and being hated, enslaved to different lusts and pleasures? I bet we all know people who have, don’t we?” I ask.

The men are all nodding, and a few comment that this verse describes their current lives.  Suddenly I’m struck by a truth not directly related to this verse.  I turn to a wiry tatted-up Latin-looking gang guy to my right and say:

“You know God has a special love for violent men and wants to help them.  He goes after them and never gives up on them so they can say what’s being said here—that this was their former life” I say, a bit surprised by my growing passion.

The guy is startled.  “How did you know?” he asked. “Nearly all my past offences and the jail and prison time I’ve served have been for assaults due to my violence. I have been hated and people hate me now.”

He went on to complain that he is currently being charged for something he didn’t do. “This fills me with hate and I don’t know what to do to get out of this.  They’re wanting to send me way for a long time again,” he said.

I shake my head, sympathizing as best I can, remembering that our thirty minutes are now more than half over and others are there in the circle with their own struggles and needs to hear good news. 

“That sounds really difficult and unfair and we must pray for you if you’d like before the guards come,” I say.  But let’s look at the next verses first.  I ask someone to read from Titus 3:4 onward, stopping him after the first few words of verse 5:

“But when the kindness of God our Savior and his love for mankind appeared,  He saved us.”

“Check this out you guys,” I say.  “What happens here and who benefits?”

“It says here that God’s kindness appears and that he loves mankind and saves us.” 

“These guys who once were all messed up in addictions, full of hatred and being hated by everyone are telling about what happened—that God was kind to them in a special way.  I wonder if it tells us what they had to do in order to benefit.  Could someone keep reading so we can see what kind of hoops they had to jump through to get God’s help?” I ask. 

A Latino gang guy to my left reads the next verses with a strong Spanish accent and I ask him to stop after the first line:

“Not on the basis of deeds which we have done in righteousness.”

We talk briefly about how God’s kindness, love and saving are not a reward for good behavior, compliance with laws or success at getting your act together.  Romans 2:4 comes to mind, where Paul prohibits judging and states so strongly to the unkind: “do you think lightly of the riches of his kindness and forbearance and patience, not knowing that the kindness of God leads you to repentance?”

But there’s no time to read this verse and I ask the guy to continue reading from where we left off in Titus 3:5   “but according to His mercy, by the washing of regeneration and renewing by the Holy Spirit, whom He poured out upon us richly through Jesus Christ our Savior.”

Each word spoken seems like a perfectly shot arrow, hitting the targets of men’s hearts.  What better news can there be than this?!  Good News is penetrating and I can feel it in the room.  It’s what I long to witness over and over.  I ask if anyone feels a need to be washed clean.

The guy to my right says “I do for sure.  I take four showers a day in here, and it doesn’t make any difference at all.  I still feel the same.”

He tells me what the others already know, that his street name is Guilty.  I am deeply moved, overcome by affection, sensing Jesus right there with us. Knowing that only a few minutes remain before the guards arrive to take everyone back to their cells I summarize the next verse. 

“Before we pray let’s check out this next verse you guys.  It says ‘that being justified by His grace we might be made heirs according to the hope of eternal life.’  Being justified means being made alright, acquitted, totally clean and righteous before God.  Do any of you guys want this?  Do you feel a need to be washed by Jesus’ love and by the Holy Spirit being poured out?”

Each man around the circle says that they do, including Guilty who’s leaning forward in his chair beside me.

I remind them that when Jesus washes us clean it is totally by grace, and that it’s an absolutely free gift.  “Jesus makes us right with God, brings us into God’s family with all the benefits—including living forever. Paul wants to be so sure that people understand this that he states it super clearly in the next verse.  Could someone read verse 8?”

“This is a trustworthy statement; and concerning these things I want you to speak confidently.”

I invite the guys to choose to believe, to be confident that God’s kindness and love for them are real and true.  I invite anyone who wants to say yes to God’s love, to receive his cleansing forgiveness by opening their hands and hearts. The men have their palms out and are receiving as I pray for the Holy Spirit to be poured out upon them.  I pray for mercy and legal breakthroughs for Guilty, and the door pops open just as we’re through.

The kindness of God has just appeared and saved and I head home delighted—experiencing Epiphany a week ahead of the official date.  May you experience light of God’s love shining on you and washing you clean now as you begin 2014.

Believing and Receiving

John 1 recently came alive as an uncommon version of the Christmas story when reading together with men in Skagit County Jail two Thursday nights ago, starting right from the first two verses: “In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.  He was in the beginning with God.”

“Check this out you guys,” I start out.  “ Here it says that God’s Word was with God from the start.  God’s Word equals God, and is called Word to stress God’s speaking.  Do any of you guys feel the need to hear from God?  Do you need wisdom for some hard decision?”   

Most of the guys around each of our three consecutive bible study circles that night expressed their need and desire to hear from God— for direction for whether to accept a plea agreement, wisdom about dealing with girl friend or cell mate, clarity about their own calling or about spiritual questions.  A number of guys also shared their inability to recognize God’s presence with them or perceive any kind of divine communication.  

Before talking about what to do about spiritual obstacles I asked someone to read John 1:3-5, and we noted the power of God’s Word to bring all things into being as life and light which cannot be overcome by darkness.   

Some of the men were surprisingly attentive while others seemed to strain to understand.   Aware of the danger of losing people’s interest due the theoretical sound of things, and not wanting to talk about John the Baptist but keep people focused on God’s speaking and eventually revealing himself in Jesus, I asked someone to read John 1:9:

“There was the true light which, coming into the world, enlightens every man.” 

“So who is this Word, the life and true light for according to this verse?”  I asked.  “Are people with multiple felonies excluded?” I ask to further get their attention.

“No, it says it’s for every man,” a guy answered emphatically.

“What about legalistic prosecutors or people who look down on others as inferior?” I ask.

“It’s for them too,” someone else responds—reflecting a graciousness towards nearly any variety of “bad guy” among broken men. 

“What about sex-offenders?” I ask.

“Even sex-offenders,” someone responds.  “The Word enlightens every man.”

“Ok, so there is no one excluded,” I summarize.  “So would that be attractive to people you know?” I ask. 

The inmates seem genuinely attracted to this Word as desirable and good.  I invite someone to read verses 10 to see how the world responds.

“He was in the world, and the world was made through him, and the world did not recognize him.  He came to his own, and those who were his own did not receive him.”

That God’s Word can be completely missed or outright rejected by Jesus’ own people seemed to allow the men some relief from self-condemnation.  A man with long blond hair, heavily tattooed forearms and a knowledge of Scripture from years of prison time tells us he has an important verse.  He reads 2 Corinthians 4:4— “the god of this world has blinded the minds of the unbelieving so that they might not see the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God.”

“Do you guys see any signs that there’s a spiritual power out to keep you from knowing Jesus?” I ask.  Many of the men say they recognize that their faith is under attack.  Knowing we were ten minutes away from the guards coming I suggest we look at how we exercise authority over anti-Jesus propaganda.  I ask someone to read John 1:12

“But as many as received him, to them he gave the right to become children of God, even to those who believe in his name.”

The invitation here is presented as a testimony to be emulated—to become one of these “many” which actually seem like a few.  Receiving and believing looks like such a simple step requiring nothing more than humble, child-like faith.  And yet there is something so counter-cultural to receiving Jesus when the world is not recognizing and Jesus’ own are rejecting.  There’s a boldness and step of blind trust involved in believing.   Yet to keep this as simple as it is I could see that a correction was in order.

Prisoners known for their difficulties in complying with laws need to know that the translation “right to become children of God” is not right.  It sounds like becoming a child of God is something you must earn or qualify for (like entrance into drug court, a drivers license, or visitation rights to see children in foster care).  The word in Greek is actually exousia, meaning “authority.”  As we receive Jesus and believe in his name, God gives us authority to become his children, which begins a process of spiritual empowerment.   

It’s a no-brainer for the men to see they would have more authority as God’s sons than sons of their biological father.   “Authority as God’s children includes authority over demons and over all sickness” (Luke 9:1; Matt 10:1), I say, and ask them if anyone was in pain or needed freedom from the blinding god of this world.  In each study a number of men were in pain and there was enthusiasm about having authority over powers of darkness.

I ask the men whether they are attracted to Jesus enough to want to receive him.  I invite those drawn to Jesus to take a step of faith with me.  I invite them to tell Jesus directly of their desire to receive him and choose to believe in him.   In each of the three groups it looked to me like everyone was speaking out their choice to receive and believe as we prayed.

Most of the men had their hands palms up in front of them as I went on to invite them to then and there receive their authority as sons of God and to receive the Holy Spirit. 

I invited those who felt assaulted by the god of this world to confess their own past and present agreement with darkness, to renounce the god of this world and to ask Jesus to open their eyes. 

I then encouraged people to go a step further in the practice of their new authority by putting their hands on places on their body where they needed healing and speak out healing in Jesus’ name.    Minutes before the guards came a number of men were noting in surprise and delight that all pain had left.

I left excited by the child-like openness of men deemed “hardened criminals” to receive Jesus into their beings and step straight into experiencing the benefits.  May your eyes be opened and your faith ignited as you receive and believe in Jesus this season.

Wisdom Calls to the Undeserving

Many people we minister to consider themselves unqualified to be spoken to or in any way positively pursued by God.  Inmates commonly criticize themselves and others for attending our weekly gatherings, often stating that they don’t expect God to help them now that they’re in trouble since they didn’t seek God through attending church, praying or reading the Bible before their arrests.

Proverbs offers a powerful antidote to street religion, offering hope for sinners.   I invite people to read Proverbs 8:1-3 and ask them where wisdom speaks?  Together we identify some of the high places, streets, intersections and entry points of our city.   Might God be speaking in all these places?

We also read Proverbs 9:1-3, where wisdom is described as building a house, preparing food and sending out maidens to the heights of the city to invite people.  The inmates are struck that God’s wisdom takes the initiative and calls out in the streets, in public places and not in the expected places like church.

“To whom is wisdom calling?” I ask, inviting people to read Proverbs 8:4-5 and 9:4.  “God’s voice goes out to all men,” someone says.  “To the ignorant, to the fools,” says someone else. 

“And who are the ignorant and the fools today?”  I ask. 

“We are,” says one of the prisoners—and nobody disagrees.  People are surprised that wisdom pursues the uneducated, the undignified, losers who are on the outside.

I talk about how people usually think that sin separates them from God, but that here we see God’s wisdom offered freely to the unworthy, the unqualified.  I invite the men to be on the lookout for this wisdom & to expect God to be speaking and to even directly ask Jesus for wisdom and understanding. 

I invite someone to read James 1:5 “but if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all generously and without reproach, and it will be given to him.”

When I ask the men if any of them feel they need wisdom for a difficult decision, a relationship or anything, everyone’s nodding.  We go on to read about the need to ask with faith, “without any doubting”—with expectation that God will answer.

I was recently driving down to Washington State Reformatory, thinking and praying in preparation for our bi-monthly Spanish worship service in Washington’s largest prison.  As I headed down Interstate 5 towards the turnoff to Highway 2 I decided to ask God for wisdom. 

“Here I am Jesus at an intersection.  Give me a word, give me wisdom that would open up the men to your love.”

Immediately I had a picture in my minds eye of a tattoo of a heart on a bare chest over someone’s heart and the words as coming from God: “people see you as having a black heart, but I see you as having a good heart and as being a noble man.”

I immediately began to doubt that this was coming from God.  Never had I seen a heart tattoo on a man’s chest.  Surely I was making this up.

A group of fifteen or so Spanish-speaking inmates came to my service.  I led them in a version of the above Bible study, which came together beautifully.  At the end I decided to go for it and ask if anyone by any chance had a heart tattooed on his chest.   I looked around the circle from right to left, man to man.  Nobody was acknowledging such a tattoo.  Then a man to my left raised his hand. “I do,” he said, in Spanish.

I looked at him and repeated the Spanish translation of “people see you as having a black heart, but I see you as having a good heart and as being a noble man.”  His head recoiled and another man exclaimed in shock: “that’s truly a prophetic word.”  The man then pulled up his shirt to reveal a band of tattoos running across his chest—pointing to a clearly tattooed heart right over his heart.

Two weeks later I was able to ask him what that word about his heart had meant to him.  He told me that he is from a notorious street gang in El Salvador and has a long history of violent, criminal behavior and was viewed by people as having a black heart.  He said: “Lately I have been really doubting that people or God will ever see me as having a changed heart, even after all my efforts to follow Jesus.  That word really encouraged me, giving me hope that God sees my heart as good.”

This man was the most vocal leader of our new prison faith community and one of three or four members of the same Central American gang.

Please pray for this man’s growing faith, for this emerging Spanish church inside the prison and for our next gathering this coming Sunday.   Pray for us as we seek to be “maidens of God’s wisdom”—inviting the undeserving to the banqueting table.

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First Class Connections in France

I just returned from a ten-day trip to France and the UK that was marked by a number of divinely-orchestrated encounters.  When I have a significant meeting with someone in out-of-the-ordinary circumstances, my faith and expectation increase, and I long to see and enter Jesus’ Kingdom more regularly.  I cannot resist sharing a few of these meetings with you.

Last week I flew from Vancouver to France to speak at a conference near Valence in the Rhone Valley.  I had been invited by the leaders of a French prayer movement called “Union de Prière” (Prayer Union) to speak to 150 of their members at their annual retreat, which this year was on resistance and submission.

I had also planned to introduce the French version of my course on missions to anyone interested in starting a pilot course in their church.  The conference provided a perfect occasion to connect with many leaders throughout French-speaking Europe.

The location was a three-story stone retreat center in the beautiful little town of Charmes, located on the Eastern foothills of the remote mountainous area known as the Cevennes or “desert,” (wilderness) where French protestant “Huguenots” had found refuge from persecution.

On the fourth day I had planned to visit Daniel Bourguet, a Protestant monk who directed my doctoral thesis and has been an important spiritual mentor since 1989 (photo below).  Gracie and I have been members of “Les Veilleurs,” a spiritual community committed to contemplative prayer led by Daniel for many years.   A friend drove me 3-4 hours to “Les Abeilleres”- a retreat center in the Southern part of the Cevennes region near Montpellier where many come for retreats and spiritual direction with Daniel Bourguet.

It was great to catch up and to pray with Daniel, to give him my mission recordings, and receive his latest book.  When our time was up he accompanied me down the path from his hermitage towards the retreat center.  When we reached a bench where Daniel’s next visitor was waiting I said goodbye, and we drove the 3-4 hours back to Charmes.

The next day was the final morning of the conference, after which a man drove me to the train station in Valence.  We conversed about his rapport with his father, who he consequently felt led to more fully forgive and bless. The Spirit came very strongly and we ended up praying together right up to the last moment before the train came.

I entered the train station, found the right platform but didn’t have time to have my ticket stamped before boarding—a requirement on French trains.  After settling into a second class seating area filled with young people, I got up to look for the conductor. 

I made my way to the second floor of the train and eventually located the man who checked tickets, apologized and explained that I hadn’t been able to stamp my ticket before getting on.  “Bob,” he said, “someone who travels as much as you do should be traveling first class!”

It took a while for his statement to register as I didn’t recognize this man at all and couldn’t imagine how he could know my name or anything about me.  Amused at my confusion he explained:

“I was the man sitting on the bench yesterday, waiting to see Daniel Bourguet at Les Abeilleres after you visited with him,” he said.  “Let’s go to your seat and get your bags, I have a seat for you in First Class.”

I could not believe what was happening to me, and he too was quite surprised.   There are many trains that stop at Valence every day, but very few that stop at CDG airport as mine did.  He said he knew my name because the retreat hostess had told him that Daniel was with “Bob.”  If I hadn’t failed to stamp my ticket I would have never gone up to the second floor where we met.

After finishing checking people’s tickets he, Frédéric, brought me tea and pound cake and we talked for nearly two hours about God, contemplative prayer, and about “Les Veilleurs,” of which he was also a member.  I was inspired by his active pursuit of God and intercession as he traveled.  It turned out he was especially interested in my mission course and said he was from a 250-member charismatic evangelical church in Montpellier that has a strong interest in mission.  I had one last copy of my video recorded lectures that he was happy to accept.

I continue to ponder what the Spirit is doing in connecting me with this contemplative train conductor.  Nine years ago while staying at the Union de Prière retreat center in Charmes I had dreamed of a fire mounting from the Eastern Cevennes (Charmes) and from the South (Les Abeilleres) consuming the symbolic heartland of French Protestantism. 

Back then I had also traveled to visit Daniel Bourguet as I did last week.  The Holy Spirit does appear to be actively involved in  linking people and movements for prayer and also for mission-- in this case to bring renewal to France.

Burning the Chaff

Last Sunday during our jail service I came prepared to baptize a man who had requested baptism a few weeks before.  The jail Sergeant even personally filled up the minimalist paper cup for this Sacrament, handing it to me with a smirk across the institutional-maroon Formica booking counter.  I knew there was a good chance my supply of water would not be used as on the previous Thursday.

There was no guarantee that I would see the men from E-Pod due to the jail’s reorganization efforts.  My thirty minute time slot was already whittled down to twenty minutes due to the previous group’s late start.  As the guard ushered me back into the jail’s multipurpose room I learned that the upper tier of E-Pod was locked down due to a fight, so the chances of the baptismal candidate being in the lower tier was getting lower.  And yet I’ve been experiencing God’s amazing flexibility in working in the midst of the messiness of human contingencies, and the group that came in did includethe man wanting baptism. 

We looked together at Jesus’ baptism according to Matthew 3:11-17, and I suddenly wondered why I had complicated an already short time reflection by including verses 11-12.

“As for me, I baptize you with water for repentance, but he who is coming after me is mightier than I, and I am not fit to remove his sandals; he will baptize you with the Holy Spirit and fire.  And his winnowing fork is in his hand, and he will thoroughly clear his threshing floor; and he will gather his wheat into the barn, but he will burn up the chaff with unquenchable fire.”

An inmate read John’s description that Jesus would baptize with the Holy Spirit and fire.  We discussed the verses that terrorize people about the chaff being burned with unquenchable fire while the grain is gathered into the barn.  

In response to an inmate’s articulation that chaff equaled bad people that would be damned, I suggested that chaff is the protective part of a grain—and that Jesus’ baptism is about removing and destroying this self-protective part from the vulnerable and valuable kernel—us. 

“What might be some of the means we use to self protect?” I asked.  The men mention things like knives, guns, and self-medicating efforts like drug and porn addictions, and overworking.  I turned to a young gang member sitting beside me who I’d know for many years and asked him if he’d ever threatened anyone as a way to self-protect.  He looked surprised and said: “That’s what I’m in here for right now—for threatening someone.”  

It encouraged the guys to see Jesus as not being about burning up people, but rather our self-protective attitudes and practices.  Seeing baptism as a surrendering to the fire of our ways of taking care of ourselves, our stress and problem-producing control mechanisms looked appealing.  After all, the men could see that this chaff had gotten them into the trouble they were in.

We then read the next verses describing Jesus’ actual baptism, how the Spirit came upon him as he came out of the purifying, chaff-removing water.  The Father’s words of total, unmerited approval appealed to these men who had a proven track record (criminal record) showing their inability to measure up. 

From there I suggested that we go right into the baptism and asked the man if he still wanted to do it.  He nodded soberly, and I asked him to stand and for everyone to gather around him in a semi-circle.  At this point I decided to extend the invitation to others.  Three other men from the group wanted to be baptized, including the young gang member who was looking at life inprisonment.   All of us spoke our agreement regarding the following baptismal renunciations and affirmations in both English and Spanish.

“Do you renounce Satan and all the spiritual forces of wickedness that rebel against God?”

“Do you renounce the evil powers of this world which corrupt and destroy the creatures of God?”

“Do you renounce all sinful desires that draw you from the love of God?”

“Do you turn to Jesus Christ and accept him as your Savior?”

“Do you put your whole trust in his grace and love?”

“Do you promise to follow and obey him as your Lord?”

The guards came in just as I was dowsing the fourth man, twenty minutes into our time.  I left amazed at God’s perfect timing, grateful to be part of Jesus’ beautiful ministry.

Further Adventures in Jail

Last Thursday night I went to the jail prepared to baptize a man from E-Pod, but apparently God had other ideas.  The jail guards surprisingly ushered in inmates from B-Pod, a group of men who hadn’t been allowed to attend our services for over three weeks.

The fifteen or so men were eager to talk about Romans 1:18-20 (see my last update).  Since they had been kept from regular gatherings due to reshuffling in the jail they were particularly open and we had a rich discussion.  When the guards didn’t come after the usual thirty minutes I invited the men to receive more of the Holy Spirit in a way I thought they would like.  Since I knew they had been deprived both physically and spiritually I suggested that we try drinking in the Spirit through an imaginary exercise that I rarely do.

I suggested that we imagine that we are each holding a forty ounce can of malt liquor which we were going to chug (the fastest and cheapest way on the street to get an alcohol buzz).  I told them that I was going to pray over our imaginary cans, that the Holy Spirit would fill them so we could drink God’s Spirit right down into our beings.  The guys were humored and excited as we lifted our cans before us, popping the tabs to open them, asking the Spirit to come and then “one, two, three,” chugged them down.  We laughed together for a while and then I told them a story about when I had first done this drinking activity with inmates about eight years before. 

I told them how after I and the four inmates had received the spirit in this way the man to my right had began to cry, the man beside him was filled with joy, and I got the word “father wound.”   As I told the story I pointed in the direction of about ten o’clock in our large circle of men, recalling how right there, eight years ago, one of the four had stood up, saying he was sure this father wound word applied to him.

He had then pulled up his shirt to show us seven stab wounds his stomach.  He went on to recount how his father had beaten him severely when he was a kid and that he had felt so badly about himself that three months before he had stabbed himself seven times in the stomach and had nearly died from the wounds—continuing to feel severe stomach pain.

At that point I told the group how I had explained to this man the importance of expressing the pain we have from our fathers and mothers sinning against us, and then to drop our judgments rather than harbor bitterness.  I pointed over to where the man had been sitting who had stabbed himself, remembering it like it was yesterday, recalling how he had chosen to forgive his father and consequently been healed.

As I was finishing the story one of the men I had been pointing towards surprised us all by saying that this man I was telling about was his brother!  He told how in fact their father had exercised a lot of physical and emotional violence against them when they were growing up, and how his older brother had done prison sentence after prison sentence.

Realizing that I now needed to continue focusing on forgiving our fathers, we moved into a discussion about how when we don’t forgive those who have sinned against us we are likely to behave in similar ways.  At this point one of the men who had continued reading on his own after Romans 1:18-20 said: “Hey, right here it says exactly that:

“Therefore you have no excuse, everyone of you who passes judgment, for in that which you judge another, you condemn yourself; for you who judge practice the same things… Or do you think lightly of the riches of his kindness and tolerance and patience, not knowing that the kindness of God leads you to repentance” (Romans 2:1-4). 

A man to my left spoke up: “I don’t know if I can do that.  I am totally full of bitterness toward my old man.  Is this something you can just do, or does it sometimes take a long time?” he asked.

I assured him that it can take a long time when we’ve been seriously sinned against, and I reminded everyone of Jesus’ call to forgive seventy times seven (Matt 18:22).  A huge guy who worked as a logger to my right stood up and told how this would be hard for him too:    

“My dad shot and killed my mom when I was one year old.  He didn’t just shoot her once but four times.  I’ve been bitter against him ever since I learned it from my adoptive parents,” he said.

Just then the guards popped the doors and I said goodbye to the men, encouraging them to let the Spirit guide them regarding who and how they need to forgive.   I left amazed at how the Holy Spirit was so present to seemingly guide the guards choice of pods and the following words, Scriptures, example and even the gestures of our gathering.  I left interceding for these men, who like most offenders have been seriously sinned against themselves and are in need of big doses of mercy and love.

Reading the Bible alongside the "damned"

One recent Sunday in the jail I discovered that the normal ‘B-pod’ group of inmates I usually meet with were ‘locked down’ due to a fight.  The guard ushered in a different group of 8 or so men instead.  After introducing ourselves and praying I had someone read Romans 1:18-31.  As an inmate read the first verse I suddenly saw something I had never noticed.

“For the wrath of God is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and unrighteousness -- of men who suppress the truth in unrighteousness.” 

“Do you guys notice here that God’s wrath is not revealed against people?” I asked, interrupting the reading. “God’s wrath is against ungodliness and unrighteousness!  Wrath is not directed at unbelieving, deceptive, abusive, lustful or angry men, but against unbelief, deception, abuse, lust and anger.  Does this sound like good news?”

The men looked up from their bibles with wide eyes, surprised, even a bit jolted.  Suddenly it dawned on me that I was reading Romans 1 with the sex-offender pod, men who hadn’t had access to weekly Bible studies due to the danger of mixing them with other inmates because of their despised, sex-offender status.

This clear differentiation between sin and people is consistent in the New Testament (see Romans 7:19-20).  Jesus is never described as being violent towards people, but only towards the non-human powers (demons, Satan, certain attitudes (like superiority, pride), sins, money changing tables...).  This distinction makes it easier for many to approach God for help.

More precisely here, God’s wrath is revealed against the spiritual states of ungodliness (asebeia), meaning lack of reverence for God, and unrighteousness (adikia) – which is the opposite of truth (alethia) and true righteousness (life in harmony with God’s will & Jesus’ kingdom- “on earth as in heaven”).

Ungodliness and unrighteousness result from people suppressing the truth in unrighteousness, rather then welcoming God’s continual communication to us all.

God’s communicating to all people is emphasized next: “because that which is known about God is evident within them; for God made it evident to them. For since the creation of the world His invisible attributes, His eternal power and divine nature, have been clearly seen, being understood through what has been made, so that they are without excuse” (1:19-20). 

“Do you sense that God is speaking to you? Are you paying attention to what God is showing and telling you?” The men were all able to think of examples of the Spirit’s active communication to them, and also of their suppressing the truth in the midst of daily life.  I found myself really inspired to be even more watchful for God’s Presence in my life too.  The next lines offered analysis and some keys to a knowing the way forward.

“For even though they knew God, they did not honor Him as God, or give thanks; but they became futile in their speculations, and their foolish heart was darkened” (1:21)

Futile speculation, darkness, worshipping and serving creatures and all evil described in the rest of this passage result from ignoring the Creator, who gives humans over to the lusts of their hearts (v. 24), degrading passions (v. 26) and depraved mind (v. 28).

We agreed together to respond to this verse in prayer, speaking words honoring and thanking God.  This is the way forward in resisting ungodliness and unrighteousness from the suppression of truth, and I find myself wanting to practice this more deliberately.

Titus 2:11-12 provides still more encouragement to pay attention to God’s initiatives towards us, as God’s grace is described as actively appearing, bringing salvation and instructing:

“For the grace of God has appeared, bringing salvation to all men, instructing us to deny ungodliness and worldly desires and to live sensibly, righteously and godly in the present age.”

Our group of unlikely partners came to a place of unusual clarity and excitement to step into active faith described just prior to all these verses:

“For I am not ashamed of the gospel, for it is the power of God for salvation to everyone who believes, to the Jew first and also to the Greek. For in it righteousness of God is revealed from faith to faith; as it is written, “but the righteous man shall live by faith.” (1:16-17)

The following week I received a letter from one of the inmates for that pod.  I include an excerpt here:

“Thank you for coming today, because our pod is very unlucky when it comes to getting our own time for church and A.A.  I’m sorry to say that we are lucky that B-pod was locked down today.  Otherwise we would have not had that opportunity to see you.  Just within this last two months that I’ve been here I have received Jesus as my Savior and I have this pod to thank for that.  This is the sex offender pod and before I was brought here whenever I was in another pod or I looked into here from on the other side of the door I was so judgmental and I talked bad about this pod.  But now that I’m in here I couldn’t want to be in any other pod.  The guys in here are, for the most part saved and born again.  Whenever we get someone new we suggest Bible studies and the like.  I am not a sex offender but the guys that are in here that are being charged are facing life and for the most part feel the need for Jesus because they feel they have very little to live for…. Most people think that these guys are monsters, but if they were here in the midst of it all would think differently.  They are the most giving, caring and nice guys around.  If we need something or want it and they can spare it they will 90% of the time give it to us.  Things like phone calls, commissary items, I-care packages and whatnot all get shared even when we don’t ask.  The pod has a happy, joyful aura about it that makes things easier being in jail.”

It is encouraging to see the Spirit moving among those who society would deem the least worthy, even damned.  When we come to believe that God truly loves us while opposing powers that prey on us, we are lead to honor and gratitude.  I am seeing a growing desire among inmates and my own colleagues to consciously resist “suppressing the truth”, and to step into a more active relationship with our continually speaking, revealing Creator.  Gracie and I are feeling this too, and pray that you will be encouraged forward in your faith journey as well.